Started Writing

After waking up from a dream I decided to try and write it down and ended up with a short story. It is written in Swedish and you can find it on the link below.

När vi sågs igen - Novell.nu

It felt really nice to start writing again and I hope I will find more inspiration to write new material, finish started stories and rewrite what I wrote in my youth.

Poor Kid

I'm sitting in the arrivals hall at the airport, waiting. And what's happening in front of me makes me furious. There are about twenty people here, welcoming home a couple. They have big cameras, signs, heck, they even have a camera filming on a tripod. People are hugging, photographing and shedding tears. This might sound very sweet and you might all wonder what's making me so upset about this scenery.

The couple are not alone. They have one kid with them. A young toddler that I assume that they just adopted. I have nothing against the adoption, let that be stated right away. But this young child have just been torn from his home, might be that it just was a shitty orphanage, but it was this child's home. He's been tossed into a new family, one that I'm guessing doesn't speak a word of his own language. They then take him on a long journey, away from everything he knew. And as soon as they arrive he is surrounded by at least twenty strangers with big cameras.

I understand that the family want to share their new bundle of joy, it have surely been a long journey for these parents to get their child. But this huge commotion, it surely must be shocking, strange and scary for their child. Not given a change to adjust to his new life, he's being surrounded by all these people that want to take pictures, carry him, introducing themselves. Am I just being strange? Or is this a bit too much?

I know I'm very uneasy with new surroundings and new people, I know that it is something that cause me a lot of anxiety, so maybe I'm overreacting. But this just feels so strange to witness.

January in Pictures

First month is soon over and I have been very busy editing and choosing pictures for my "1 photo per day"-challenge. This first month has gone okay I think. I only missed one days. My hope is to do better next month and also publish the photos a bit more often, since this is going to end up to be a long long post.

Let's take a look then, January 2015.

 01.Jan

Playing with fire

02.Jan

On the road 

03.Jan

Mini-LAN, playing "7 Days to Die" 

04.Jan

Good morning 

05.Jan

The stairs outside my apartment, I like the light 

06.Jan

Someone has to unpack her stuff 

07.Jan

My calender, and January has been a busy month 

08.Jan

Arriving to London 

09.Jan

Walking around in London all day was lovely, there was lot of sunshine and so much to see

10.Jan

One can't be in London and not take pictures of the red phoneboxes

11.Jan

The roof of the museum where I went on the last day 

12.Jan

Home sweet home 

14.Jan (yes, I missed 13th) 

Back in school and i spent most of the lecture drawing, 

15.Jan

Time to get packing again 

16.Jan

Good bye to the burg

17.Jan

Arriving to the airport

18.Jan

Hello beaches, sunshine and surfing

19.Jan

Double rainbow

20.Jan

It might be sunshine on the days, but the evenings are cold

21.Jan

Sunset from a little mountain

22.Jan

It might not be that easy to see, but that middle-finger is a bit swollen and hurting

23.Jan

Last sunset surfing

24.Jan

A week goes by so quickly. Goodbye beaches,sunshine and surfing

25.Jan

Time to take home my lovely monsters, only took 2 hours extra because of traintroubles

26.Jan

Rainy and dark, home sweet Gothenburg

27.Jan

I was gone for a few seconds, getting my self some water, and me seat got stolen

28.Jan

It is nice to have my monsters back

29.Jan

Seal of Sweden

30.Jan

Let it snow! To bad it melted away

31.Jan

Trying to take a picture of the monsters can be a bit of a challenge

Goodbye Waves

After a week of surfing and bruising, the time has come to say goodbye and go back to a cold Sweden. This week has been great and painful, I am filled with bruises. I might not be born to be a surfer, but I love surfing no matter how bad I am at it.

Yesterday, after a hole day of surfing, we treated ourselves with one hour of massage. It was really nice for the poor body that is so not used to daily exercise. My shoulders can barely move after all the paddling.

It feels nice going hone, I'm ready to go back to normal life, normal food and to my dear babies. Pictures will come soon I hope, I should perhaps show the London photos first...

Monday Afternoon

You know what?! Surfing in the sunset on a Monday afternoon isn't that bad. I could get used to this.

Surfing here in Morocco just puts more fuel to my desire to travel to Australia and live in van. Spending the days surfing, working when money is low, and driving to new destinations. I don't need that much more money to do that. The biggest thing holding me back are my babies. Being away from them for a year would be so hard.

High Above the Ground

I have never had to run to the gate, until today. We reach the passport control and heard them announce the final call for our flight. There were a lot of people in front of us and panic started to rise. We asked the people in front if the lone if we could go before them, explaining our situation. Thank goodness for nice people, they let us pass. After that we had to run to our gate. It said closed but there were still staff there and they let us through.

I was really scared that we would make it!

Now were trying to sleep a bit, which is hard because the seat isn't the beat and we are surrounded by kids. Flying is boring, even with free WiFi. And getting randomly kicked in the back doesn't make it better. But in a few hours we'll be in Morocco.

There and Back Again

Home sweet home. And time for bed! I will update on my lovely London-trip another day, cause there is simply to time tonight. Tomorrow I have a big presentation about my internship and I am not prepared at all. But it will work out just fine. Good night.

Last Meal

One more hour until my flight to London. I've checked in and passed the security control and now I'm currently sitting at espresso house where I'm been eating a bagel and a mudcake, my last meal if I crash.

My emotions are exhausting to live with. I just feel sick to my stomach and wish I could go home and hide underneath all my blankets in my bed. Travelling scares me a lot and this is kind of the first time I'm travelling by myself. So much can go wrong. But there is also a calm and rational side coexisting with this great fear. I think that's the only reason why I'm not breaking apart here on the spot. My rational side reassures me that everything while be fine and if something bad were to happen I will survive. Losing a phone, or being lost is not the end of the world. It really isn't.

Travelling, it sure isn't easy all the time.

Packing

Doing my best to get everything done before I'm leaving for London. I'm terrible at this kind of stuff, I get distracted so easily and I also have to try every single item in my wardrobe before I can decide on what to pack down. And if deciding what to wear wasn't hard enough. I also have to decide which camera to bring, bringing all of them would be too heavy to carry.

And I also kind of need to figure out all that good to know stuff, such as how to get from the airport to my hostel. Goodness the stressful panic and euphoria in my mind is so wonderful.

Goals for 2015

Yes I already have a big challenge/resolution for this year. But I would also like to set some smaller goals for this year.

1. Paint the walls in the Hallway 
2. Put artworks on the walls
3. Sort out my mess of a hobby warderobe
4. Sew more
5. Finish a few things on the 30-list
6. Make a recipe book and try to make new things
7. Stop the addiction to sugar
8. Participate in a 10km race
9. Buy boardgames and have people over more often
10. Take classes in something (guitarr, dance, arts... something)

30 Thing Before 30 - an Update

There are not a lot of things that I can cross of from my list, but a few things are better than nothing. Right?!

15. Have manicure, pedicure and massage
This was finsihed with the massage during the wonderful visit from Linnéa and Anna in September this year.

26. Cosplay in a self-made costume
Though it was for a Halloween party, I will still cross this of. I made a beautiful Princess Leia costume with a pistol and it was so fun making it.

Things that are crossed of since before
1. Travel outside Europe
3. Open a bottle of sparkling wine
11. Surf

5 down only 25 to go and 1332 days left to do them. 

2014 In a List

Coolest

To be offered a job

To bring my PS3 back from the dead

Worst

The emotional downs that have been very dark and I've felt like I'm back 10 years ago with all the dark thoughts going around in my head.

Education

Same as last year, Computer Graphics Design. And I'm still loving it.

Injury

I know have a nice scar above my bellybutton after Milky got panic in the car. It looks like the start of a heart surgery incision.

Trip

The sad truth is that I did not do any travelling during 2014, besides going back to Stockholm. I went to Malmö over one day, which was interesting since there were many delays and such-

Homepage

www.mariasvenningsson.com 

Movie

Intouchables, Gravity

Fight

I've had a few fights/arguments with a dear friend of mine during this whole year which have been hard to deal with at time.

Worst food market

I miss ICA Lindhagen. and ICA in Akalla and also the one in Tumba. I just haven't found a food market here that feels like home.

Happiest News

 Internship at Zoink!

Saddest News

All the "no" I got when applying for internship, they were so hard to deal with. 

TV-show

My name is Maria and I'm addicted to Netflix.

Fringe

Marco Polo

Cake

I made a My little Pony shaped cake for Isabelle's birthday, sadly I have no pictures of it. It was a two layered frozen mousse cake with raspberries and elder flowers.

Electronic Device

My new computer and my Nexus 5 phone. Can't live without them!

Best Buy

Oh my, perhaps that is the phone. Or that scratching furniture I bought for the cats.

Food

Having my own place again have made i possible for me to start cooking again. 

Vegetarian dumplings!

Show

I saw Kristina från Duvemåla and also the recorded version of the Alice in Wonderland ballet.

Innovation

The short-commandos for skinning, learning to actually use short-commandos have made working so much easier.

Failure

This one is a bit hard to talk about since it has been something I've kind of been hiding. But I've had a few relapse in my self-destructive behavior. A lot of my hair have been pulled out and I had a incident with a pair of scissors. 

Hottie

Me? Haha, no just joking. Can't remember anyone special from this past year. Maybe Brad Pitts haircut from that new movie he's in, the Fury. 

Summer

Depressing since I spent it all applying and worrying about the upcoming internship.

But there has been a few nice things in there as well, visits from friends and having a balcony.

Drink

Angry Orchard cider

Good deed for myself

Taking the bike to work, saves me money and keeps me some what more exercised

Good deed for other

Helping Linnéa doing the summer-cleaning at the stable

Discovery

Tre Indier, best Indian restaurant ever. I've also continued to discover Gothenburg.

Firsts

Internship, Repairing electronic devices, putting together a computer, repairing my bike

So much can be said about this past year, the ups have been high in the clouds and the downs have been down in hell. It's been crazy and I know that this new year will be just as crazy. I'm kind of looking forward to 2016 because I think that that could be the year when everything has fallen to place with work, where to live and so on. 

And I can actually say that where ever I end up, it will be wonderful. 

A good start

It hasn't even been a full week on this new year and I'm already sick. Not the best start. But if it starts bad then it only can get better, right?!
Tomorrow I'm heading back home to Gothenburg for a few days, I wished I had a few more days back home before going back to school and internship. But I only have one day to settle in before my crazy month really starts. School, internship, trips and much more.

Is there ever enough time here in life?

2015

A new year, full of so many opportunities and changes. I have no clue where I'll be when this year ends, which is nerve wrecking and exciting all at the same time.

I don't have any new years resolution, but instead I have a challenge. I will take a photo every single day this week, and publish them here once a week. When I was younger I couldn't live without my camera and now my cameras are hidden away, gathering dust. I hope that this challenge will give me that kick and spark I need to start photographing again, not just those spontaneous photos but also all those crazy ideas for the studios.

Another change that might happen is that I'm thinking I'd changing blog. The blogger app refuse to work with android, can't not up photos, which is very annoying. So I'm thinking of switching to tumblr. Nothing decided yet though, I need to figure out a few things first. We'll see what happens.

Enjoy the new year.

2014

This year has been a gamble with the highest stakes, were I've lost everything just to win it all back. It has taught me that I am stronger.