Last Meal

One more hour until my flight to London. I've checked in and passed the security control and now I'm currently sitting at espresso house where I'm been eating a bagel and a mudcake, my last meal if I crash.

My emotions are exhausting to live with. I just feel sick to my stomach and wish I could go home and hide underneath all my blankets in my bed. Travelling scares me a lot and this is kind of the first time I'm travelling by myself. So much can go wrong. But there is also a calm and rational side coexisting with this great fear. I think that's the only reason why I'm not breaking apart here on the spot. My rational side reassures me that everything while be fine and if something bad were to happen I will survive. Losing a phone, or being lost is not the end of the world. It really isn't.

Travelling, it sure isn't easy all the time.

Packing

Doing my best to get everything done before I'm leaving for London. I'm terrible at this kind of stuff, I get distracted so easily and I also have to try every single item in my wardrobe before I can decide on what to pack down. And if deciding what to wear wasn't hard enough. I also have to decide which camera to bring, bringing all of them would be too heavy to carry.

And I also kind of need to figure out all that good to know stuff, such as how to get from the airport to my hostel. Goodness the stressful panic and euphoria in my mind is so wonderful.

Goals for 2015

Yes I already have a big challenge/resolution for this year. But I would also like to set some smaller goals for this year.

1. Paint the walls in the Hallway 
2. Put artworks on the walls
3. Sort out my mess of a hobby warderobe
4. Sew more
5. Finish a few things on the 30-list
6. Make a recipe book and try to make new things
7. Stop the addiction to sugar
8. Participate in a 10km race
9. Buy boardgames and have people over more often
10. Take classes in something (guitarr, dance, arts... something)

30 Thing Before 30 - an Update

There are not a lot of things that I can cross of from my list, but a few things are better than nothing. Right?!

15. Have manicure, pedicure and massage
This was finsihed with the massage during the wonderful visit from Linnéa and Anna in September this year.

26. Cosplay in a self-made costume
Though it was for a Halloween party, I will still cross this of. I made a beautiful Princess Leia costume with a pistol and it was so fun making it.

Things that are crossed of since before
1. Travel outside Europe
3. Open a bottle of sparkling wine
11. Surf

5 down only 25 to go and 1332 days left to do them. 

2014 In a List

Coolest

To be offered a job

To bring my PS3 back from the dead

Worst

The emotional downs that have been very dark and I've felt like I'm back 10 years ago with all the dark thoughts going around in my head.

Education

Same as last year, Computer Graphics Design. And I'm still loving it.

Injury

I know have a nice scar above my bellybutton after Milky got panic in the car. It looks like the start of a heart surgery incision.

Trip

The sad truth is that I did not do any travelling during 2014, besides going back to Stockholm. I went to Malmö over one day, which was interesting since there were many delays and such-

Homepage

www.mariasvenningsson.com 

Movie

Intouchables, Gravity

Fight

I've had a few fights/arguments with a dear friend of mine during this whole year which have been hard to deal with at time.

Worst food market

I miss ICA Lindhagen. and ICA in Akalla and also the one in Tumba. I just haven't found a food market here that feels like home.

Happiest News

 Internship at Zoink!

Saddest News

All the "no" I got when applying for internship, they were so hard to deal with. 

TV-show

My name is Maria and I'm addicted to Netflix.

Fringe

Marco Polo

Cake

I made a My little Pony shaped cake for Isabelle's birthday, sadly I have no pictures of it. It was a two layered frozen mousse cake with raspberries and elder flowers.

Electronic Device

My new computer and my Nexus 5 phone. Can't live without them!

Best Buy

Oh my, perhaps that is the phone. Or that scratching furniture I bought for the cats.

Food

Having my own place again have made i possible for me to start cooking again. 

Vegetarian dumplings!

Show

I saw Kristina från Duvemåla and also the recorded version of the Alice in Wonderland ballet.

Innovation

The short-commandos for skinning, learning to actually use short-commandos have made working so much easier.

Failure

This one is a bit hard to talk about since it has been something I've kind of been hiding. But I've had a few relapse in my self-destructive behavior. A lot of my hair have been pulled out and I had a incident with a pair of scissors. 

Hottie

Me? Haha, no just joking. Can't remember anyone special from this past year. Maybe Brad Pitts haircut from that new movie he's in, the Fury. 

Summer

Depressing since I spent it all applying and worrying about the upcoming internship.

But there has been a few nice things in there as well, visits from friends and having a balcony.

Drink

Angry Orchard cider

Good deed for myself

Taking the bike to work, saves me money and keeps me some what more exercised

Good deed for other

Helping Linnéa doing the summer-cleaning at the stable

Discovery

Tre Indier, best Indian restaurant ever. I've also continued to discover Gothenburg.

Firsts

Internship, Repairing electronic devices, putting together a computer, repairing my bike

So much can be said about this past year, the ups have been high in the clouds and the downs have been down in hell. It's been crazy and I know that this new year will be just as crazy. I'm kind of looking forward to 2016 because I think that that could be the year when everything has fallen to place with work, where to live and so on. 

And I can actually say that where ever I end up, it will be wonderful. 

A good start

It hasn't even been a full week on this new year and I'm already sick. Not the best start. But if it starts bad then it only can get better, right?!
Tomorrow I'm heading back home to Gothenburg for a few days, I wished I had a few more days back home before going back to school and internship. But I only have one day to settle in before my crazy month really starts. School, internship, trips and much more.

Is there ever enough time here in life?

2015

A new year, full of so many opportunities and changes. I have no clue where I'll be when this year ends, which is nerve wrecking and exciting all at the same time.

I don't have any new years resolution, but instead I have a challenge. I will take a photo every single day this week, and publish them here once a week. When I was younger I couldn't live without my camera and now my cameras are hidden away, gathering dust. I hope that this challenge will give me that kick and spark I need to start photographing again, not just those spontaneous photos but also all those crazy ideas for the studios.

Another change that might happen is that I'm thinking I'd changing blog. The blogger app refuse to work with android, can't not up photos, which is very annoying. So I'm thinking of switching to tumblr. Nothing decided yet though, I need to figure out a few things first. We'll see what happens.

Enjoy the new year.

2014

This year has been a gamble with the highest stakes, were I've lost everything just to win it all back. It has taught me that I am stronger.

Time for Cuddles

Milky has never been a lap cat. And today he just decided to walk into my lap and take a nap. Melted my heart, even if it made me miss an hour of my laundry time and my legs are now in big pain. I love this monster!

A Day With Mom

Yesterday I had a lovely day with my mom. We went in to all the cute stores and boutiques that are here in town. We had lunch at lovely café that I have wanted to visit since I moved here, they had a really tasty soup. After the fall of darkness we went out to Liseberg, the amusement park. There's beautiful Christmas lights all over the park and they also had different types of Christmas fairs. We also saw a beautiful ice skating show before having vegetarian Christmas buffet. It was a great day, even if I from time to time was a bit cold.

 

Kristina från Duvemåla

This weekend my mom is visiting Gothenburg. My oldest brother and his wife were supposed to come as well, but my brother is sadly ill so they both stayed at home. Truth be told I'm glad that they stayed at home. Mom and I kicked of the weekend by goign to GöteborgsOperan and watched a musical called "Kristina från Duvemåla", based on the Emigrants novels by Vilhelm Moberg. I have never seen it before, but I grew up with two songs from this musical. Guldet Blev till Sand and Du Måste Finnas, both really great songs. Fell in love with a new one during the performance, Aldrig.

The musical was great, though I wanted to slap the kids sitting behind me. They talked so much! There should be rules against bringing children to these kind of events.

Enjoy the music! Aldrig performed by Åsa Bergh, from the original ensemble.

Zoink!

I don't know if I even told this blog that I'm doing an internship at Zoink! But yeah, that's what I'm doing these days and I love it. The people there are great, the game that we are working on is great and I get to do a lot of cool stuff. One of the cool things that I can show of is this short animation, my first run cycle.

check out Zoink at Vine for more crazy videos!

Making a Princess

After a lot of thinking I decided to turn myself into Princess Leia Organa for my friends Halloweenparty/Birthdayparty. And I did of course make my costume all by myself, not only the dress but also her gun. It was really fun to be sewing again, though it would have been a lot easier and the result would have been better if I had used the right kind of fabric. But I'm poor so I had to make do with what I could afford. I followed this very handy tutorial and it was great since the measurement suited me perfectly.

  

The dress took a day to make, it was really easy. 

Making the gun was a very interesting process. I spent hours in the hardware store without finding the right material. But I was able to find everything I needed in my magical wardrobe, the one filled with all kinds of stuff.

  

The pipe is made from glitter-glue pen, the colorful parts are clay and then there is some wire in there as well. A little bit of everything!

And here is the final result! Photographer is my dear friend Josefine Oldeman, who also fixed my hair.

  

Final Inktober

I know, October is over and so is also this years Inktober. But I finally manage to finish my last picture for this challenge. I wasn't able to draw everyday, but I did my best and I'm now looking forward to go back the normal pencil.

And so it Begins...

I'm wrapping the first Christmas gift for this year. Selma is delighted, since she loves playing with the wrapping strings. She is really adorable. I would love to wrap the second gift as well, since I just finished it. But I don't have any clear tape, so wrapping is a bit hard I guess. I will probably start making Christmas cards soon as well.